tectonically yours, me

interestingly enough, i return to the thought of people as territories, land masses, places again and again. only, don’t ask me what sort of territory i am or you are. or anyone else is. i would not know. not now, anyway. the omnia mea mecum porto has some grain of truth in it: wherever you […]

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drawing dragons – an observation made in a class of poetry where a poem containing absolutely no fantasy creatures whatsoever was discussed

she* put pen to the paper: a neck turned sinuously; a few moments later – two horns an a vision of wings. this one was spotty. that one, almost finished. another appeared for a moment, mutating into a butterfly. late snow connected the white clouds to tumultuous earth; on the poem margins dragons danced in […]

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when reading the story of Jesus and the Samaritan woman, this is what comes to mind: in all societies there are places, and times where people from different cultures meet and have to share the space and time. such places and times can become a point of departure for many things. Jesus meets a woman […]

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spring is come. one knows it by the starling-revel all over the city, and the blackbird is suddenly occupied with making racket under street lamps (they probably think of it as alluring bird-song), the crows build nests again, and the tom-tits invade my room if the window is open. and my fav mug looks like […]

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for there are so many things*

i am alive. probably, i  regret it. because my life – just like the absence thereof – has no meaning. thus, i live because it makes no difference. and do not even try to tell me otherwise. i will blow up. or break down, into pieces you will not want to see. my life is […]

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six feet under

started watching the series. for the first, what, 4  films, i find it quite stimulating, and well-made, and excellently conceived, and very, very true. and i also talked to some people yesterday, and today, and this was confirmed: there is no love without sacrifice. there is no value for a thing without giving up something […]

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apple tree

she is old. she was planted by my grandfather’s father. she has survived a world war, and countless winters and summers, and wild animals, and humans. i played in her branches when i was a kid. the apples were winter apples, their smell – refreshing and beautiful in the dark  winter evenings. i still come […]

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some day

it all started yesterday, when the sewage pipe got blocked. (i think this is a brilliant beginning of a horror story, don’t you find?) then the water got cut off. then, in the morning, the water returned, luckily. and then, i was almost in time for the lectures, but the printer broke down, and the […]

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one of our cats (the one in the pic, where he sleeps on the laundry, as was his custom) got killed by falling snow and ice from the rooftop. now the farm is un-catted, cat-less, bereft of a noble hunter.

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i have always been particular to the trees. because they are so rooted, so wooden. because they have those tree souls that make a nice echo in my soul – or maybe it is my soul’s echo in theirs? because they do not mind just being there. because when i put my hands to their […]

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not inspiring

this is a very … interesting time for this me. interesting as in the proverbial curse attributed to the chinese. interesting because of its duality, even triplicity. at some point, many years ago, i became one. me. with all the experience, and old traumæ, and half-healed wounds, and the awareness of god, and my own […]

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ash wednesday

Yet even now, says the LORD, return to me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning; rend your hearts and not your clothing. Return to the LORD, your God, for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love, and relents from punishing. (Joel 2:12-13) when i […]

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“i’m am alien, anyway,” she said. and i thought, so am i. but then she left, and i had no opportunity to ask, which planet. mine is neptune, just in case (!i). we are semi-crystalline life-forms, mostly telepathic, not particularly gregarious, however, curious to the utmost. we have infiltrated this planet earth, and are studying […]

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a reason for joy

it seems, i have the coolest research group in the whole of the third year (and i can say this also about the ba paper writing people too). everyone an individual with unique properties, creative and  thinking out of the box. they are also friendly and kindly listen to all the nonsense i try to tell […]

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today, at some point, holding my frame together with sheer willpower, trying to be sociable and coherent, i suddenly realised that all i really wanted, even longed for, was controllable levels of pain . nothing fancy, just that. gee, are my standards deteriorating and ideals imploding. Posted by Wordmobi

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when it gets too grey

look at this. it smells of the sunshine, and honey, and home. or at least the meadow and forest, and bees (invisibly present in the flowers). and the bird songs in the nights without darkness, and the lake right behind me. and sleeping in tent, and swimming, and all that is not grey.

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the mountaintop experience

almost sermon layout for the following places first, the ascent. then, the waiting. then, the vision. after that, the meeting. then, the rules. then, the descent. then, the treason. after that, the adherence to the rules. then, the plodding on.

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it was a word-game, initially. then i considered it, and it was true to some extent. people do move through the world like they were tanks: heavily armoured on the outside, vulnerable on the inside. i often do, and i have met others of the armoured division, too. then i had nothing particular to do […]

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the judgement

today i accidentally (i normally do not do this, as there are better things to do) stumbled upon one of the major latvian language newspapers (relatively major and relatively newspaper, more of yellow press sort of thing), diena, and it had this headline (here and below, all translations mine) on the front page: “Why this […]

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for those who know.. some pictures (nokia phone through bus window, and night approaching, but Solar Kitten said it was not that bad)

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a letter

dear god, i am only a poet in a world of too many words. thank you for listening to my silences. faithfully yours, me Posted by Wordmobi

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